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Thursday Thoughts: May 19, 2016

“Capital as such is not evil; it is its wrong use that is evil. Capital in some form or other will always be needed.” – Mahatma Gandhi

I go back and forth a lot when it comes to money in general, fiat currencies, buying & selling, charging for my services, etc.

For many years before I started this chapter of my life, I spent a lot of my time concerned with money. I worked full-time, I sold… products on the side, I was always ready for a way to make a profit on a deal. During these years, I spent most of my free time drinking, getting stoned, playing video-games, binge-watching TV & movies, and having a string of unhealthy relationships (both romantic & platonic). I hold much experimentation with psychedelics, failed suicide attempts, and other near-death experiences responsible for the shift out of this.

When I began to pay attention to what was happening in the world again was when I started a relationship with an amazing woman I had met at my local mmj dispensary. She opened my eyes to many things, like GMOs & fluoride, and she constantly asked me questions that helped me re-frame so many things that I had long thought of as things that were wrong with me. I quit my job when she, her brother, and I started our own medicated BBQ sauce & honey business.

Bud Kindly BBQ

When things fell apart between the three of us, I removed most of my focus from the making/having/spending of money, and focused all my energy on trying to change the world. I quickly went to a non-GMO diet, cutting out processed foods. Next I created a couple of FB pages, getting 1000s of likes quickly by posting poignant memes in busy comment threads on large pages. As that grew tiresome, I attended my first protest, the 2013 Million Mask March, and realized that we had to be out making a positive change, not complaining about the problems we saw. So, I proceeded to help organize a string of events called #OpSafeWinter.

A few months into my organizing career, a couple of friends introduced me to the Law of Attraction, through the work of Abraham-Hicks, and that old saying, “be the change you want to see in the world” resonated with me very strongly. I began focusing all of my energy on myself, my happiness, my healing, my communication. I decided I would not work again for someone I didn’t actually support, and quickly got a job at Bob’s Red Mill, a non-GMO, employee-owned company. I made a clear budget for myself while I was there: 25% rent & utilities, 50% food so I could share with lots of people (all from the organic co-op 20 blocks away, so blessed!), 25% on improving myself. I ended up being the organizer of Portland’s 2014 Million Mask March, and in doing so decided to focus my my money on the event, spending over $3000 in a couple months on printing flyers & brochures, getting 500 Guy Fawkes masks, food, and creating ~450 info bags (Alais Clay’s “Reverse Hypnosis“, MC Xander’s “Eyeopeness”, Adam Kokesh’s “FREEDOM!“, and the documentary “Owned & Operated“). [Just an aside, the 2 CDs and the DVD were all burnt and Lightscribe labeled one at a time.]


After putting on that event, I decided to focus back on myself again, but this time in treating myself as well. I got an E-bike to make my commute to work better, I cut down from 40 hours/week to 32, I signed up for an $500 workshop, followed by a trip to Mexico for Anarchapulco! When I got back to Portland, I knew it was time for some major changes, and just 3 months later I quit my job, gave away & sold almost all of my belongings, and packed a backpack to hit the road.

Just in the last 11 months since I started traveling (wow, it seems like a LOT more time has passed than that), things have really shifted a great deal. When I left for the Rainbow Gathering, I brought with me about 600 pounds of food to donate, $200 cash, my backpack & day-pack with everything I needed to live, and 2 boxes of crystals to give away. For the following months, I had almost no interaction with money at all, reclaiming a lot of food, occasionally working a trim-job for a day to get me through the next few weeks, volunteering at every festival I attended, and just generally being of service, meaning people wanted me around.

Towards winter solstice last year, I had a realization that my resistance to money was acting as a resistance to abundance in general, and decided to start changing things. Almost immediately, I was made an offer to cook an 8-course meal for a 20+ person Christmas dinner. Around the same time, I was getting some guidance & assistance from an amazing friend Andy Harrison, who made a point about every dollar that comes to me making the world better, by the nature of what I have dedicated my life to being and doing.

Shortly after this, I found myself at the second Anarchapulco, where I was cooking food & making smoothies for a building full of anarchists, happily accepting donations towards the food, and cooking large meals & selling to-go meals on a pay-what-you-want basis. A brother I met while down there this year just refused to get food from me, unless I set a price for him, which I was HIGHLY resistant to (My feeling is that I don’t know your financial situation or how much you are going to like the food. I want you to have the experience I am sharing, then decide what, if anything you want to give me in return), and though I did end up giving him a price, we never actually made the exchange. I was also offered a few things like being a personal chef, doing online cooking classes, and being given money to keep doing what I’m doing… most of which I haven’t really taken action on because of my lack of surety here.

I listen to people on every end of the spectrum when it comes to money and commerce, and I know that in the next few years, I plan on finding myself on a piece of land somewhere with a village of aligned people who want to share with & take care of each other, and it won’t be a concern. In the meantime, what to do? I know that I love the feeling of giving away a bunch of food, and letting people give me tips/donations if they want to; I know that it feels good to show up at an event and give my all without any expectation of something in return, and it feels even better when I do end up getting something in return; I know that it doesn’t feel quite right to set a price to something; I know that it doesn’t feel good to keep someone from having something because of a lack of money.

For the moment, I’m in the place of continuing to give all that I can, and just being sure to remain open to whatever the universe sends back my way, either from the people receiving or in some other way. I have also finally gotten comfortable enough with the idea of asking for help from others to create a crowdfunding page (something that has been next-on-the-list for many months now).

This ended up being quite the wall of text, so I am definitely going to put up a separate post as the “official” launch of my campaign, but here are the details on my 2016 Tour and how you can support it on GoFundMe… or you can:

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Thursday Thoughts: March 24, 2016

Alright folks, since it’s an election year, I am going to make one post addressing the idea of voting. I’ve already started having some of these conversations come up when I tell people that I do not, and have never voted. They like to come back with that “If you don’t vote, then you have no reason to complain” idea, which is just plain nonsensical. I’m not going to be delving into that idea too much, but there are 2 things I will be addressing:

  1. Your vote DOES NOT matter
  2. The state is institutionalized violence
  3. There is no way to accomplish a moral end using immoral means

1. Your vote DOES NOT matter

To start off, let’s ignore the fact that the state is completely immoral & violent; let’s pretend that “democracy” is an acceptable way of making decisions for 300+ million people, and simply look at the way the system is operating right now. I’m just going to run through a couple points that break down how much a person’s vote actually count in the USA.

  • The Electoral College:
    • The electoral college is basically a convoluted game that was created to keep the land-owning, white, protestant men as the only people able to make decisions for the US government.
    • Each state is given a number of representatives based on its VAP (Voting Age Population), meaning the number of representatives a state has comes from the number of people over 18 who live there, regardless of citizenship, eligibility to vote, or whether or not they have ever registered to vote.
    • When someone casts a presidential ballot, they are not actually voting for a candidate, they are voting for a party, and specifically for that party’s elector. The electors have no obligation to vote for the person people picked on their ballot either.
    • When votes are counted, each state tallies up theirs and has a “winner”, the person who will receive all of that state’s electoral votes, even if they only got a portion of the population’s vote.
      • California has 55 electoral votes (more than 10% of the total), and if someone receives more votes than any other candidate in California, they receive those 55 electors. Even if they didn’t even receive a majority of the actual votes (35% Candidate A, 30% Candidate B, 25% Candidate C, 10% Others).
      • Only Nebraska & Maine actually allocate electoral votes based on the popular vote instead of “winner-take-all”
      • Just as an example, if someone got the most votes (remembering that it doesn’t even have to be a majority, and this never takes into account all the people who voted for nobody), in just 11 states, they would have the electoral votes needed to win the election, even if they got zero votes in the other 39 states. (The 11 being California, Texas, Florida, New York, Illinois, Pennsylvania, Ohio, Michigan, Georgia, North Carolina, New Jersey)
    • Because of the way that electoral votes are decided, the higher population the state you live in has, the less your vote matters. It takes almost 4 times as many people in California to get 1 electoral vote as it does in Wyoming.
  • The 2-Party System:
    • The false dichotomy of left-right keeps people trapped in a mental box, thinking that the world can be broken down into a simple A or B choice.
      • The parties create the illusion of a difference between them by focusing the debate on topics like gay marriage, abortion, religion, and other things that are 100% personal choice, and should have nothing AT ALL to do with government.
      • The parties completely agree and strive towards the same major goals: keeping the 2-party system, continuing the flow of tax revenue, expanding government power, and using their power to accomplish the desires of the agricultural-pharmaceutical-military-industrial complex.
    • The 2 parties control the debates, keeping anyone else from even appearing before most voters.
    • Both parties are owned by the same corporations & investors, including the 6 media companies, thus ensuring that they will have the money to overwhelm any outsider’s campaign
    • The parties “gerrymander” to create the districts in a state, manipulating things to control which party gets the representatives for a state. (See image)


  • The Power of the Media:
    • Most people learn everything that they know about candidates, initiatives, and everything else to do with government from the media.
      • This means the average American’s opinion on Trump, Sanders, Clinton, etc. is based almost exclusively on what they have heard from that person’s (or their opponent’s) advertising campaign.
      • Groups like the GMA spend millions of dollars on campaigns to convince people to vote a certain way. In California in 2012, Washington in 2013, and Oregon & Colorado in 2014, this organization spent millions of dollars on widespread radio, TV, newspaper, and billboard ads over the week(s) before election day in order to trick everyone who wasn’t aware of the truth, that GMO labeling would mean terrible things for them personally.

2. The State is Institutional Violence.

Let’s say all the corruption & inherent controls in the USA & its voting system are gone. What gives someone the right to say, “I believe people should (or should not) do this thing, therefore I believe that a group of people should use violence and the threat of violence to force others to do (or not do) this thing”? If you think the state does not use violence and the threat of violence to accomplish everything it does, just ask yourself how it responds to something as harmless as smoking weed (in most places), not getting the proper “permit” or “license” to do or sell something, or not paying “property taxes” on land that you have bought and paid for, inhabit, and care for.

Let’s look at a hypothetical:

  • Contact you: “Hi there, we’ve decided that you owe us money for something you did (or did not do)”
  • Contact you again: “Hey, us again. We’re gonna need that money soon, or bad things may start happening. We’d really hate if you made us do bad things.”
  • Contact you again: “Hi. Bad things are starting now”
  • Do any number of minor bad things to you, including revoking your “driver’s license”, charging you “fines”, “garnishing your income” (read: forcing your employer to steal money from you, for the state), etc.
  • Contact you again: “So that was a little taste of the bad things we can do, how about you just give us our money and we can all move on with our lives in peace… because if we can’t all move on, things are going to get much worse for you”
  • Do any number of major bad things to you, generally involving some combination of: sending men with guns to your house, having those men violently kidnap you and keep you in a concrete box, going through all your personal belongings (and phone records, texts, and emails), stealing your property, convicting you of a “crime” (thus limiting your ability to find work, housing, or a loan)

This isn’t even addressing the violence that states commit against people outside of their boundaries through mass murder (which they call war), instituting puppet governments, setting “embargoes”, etc.
3. There is no way to accomplish a moral end using immoral means

I don’t really know how to explain this in a simpler way. You cannot get to a right by committing a wrong.

If you want to change ANYTHING in the world, the way to do so is by taking responsibility for your own life & actions, and CHANGING it. By voting, you are giving up your right to be heard, because you are making a choice to keep things the way they are. Once you’ve voted to keep things the same, you have no right to complain about things being the same.
How to actually change things (just a couple ideas off the top of my head):

  • If you want the world to be more peaceful, start meditating, stop giving your money to the most violent people on the planet, stop taking in propaganda that makes you think someone else deserves to die because they’re different from you, eat a vegan diet, use non-violent communication, and practice peaceful parenting.
  • If you want corporations to have less power, stop giving them your money, stop using brand names instead of the actual name of an item (it’s not Kleenex, it’s tissue; it’s not a Band-Aid, it’s a bandage), stop taking in their PROGRAMMING (television, radio, newspapers, magazines).
  • If you want the Earth to be healthier, to stop “Climate Change”, use transportation not derived from petroleum, stop buying packaged foods, stop giving money to the US government (the #1 polluter on the planet), eat a vegan diet, buy your clothes from the second-hand store (or make them yourself), grow food instead of grass, use as little electricity as possible.
  • If you want there to be less houseless, hungry, or other not-having-their-needs-met people, start giving people food, clothing, and bedding that you don’t need, grow your own food (you’ll always end up with more than you need), give (time, money, etc) to groups/organizations doing outreach work, stop giving money to the government so they can bomb more places into subsistence living.

Each of these issues the state will try to convince you they can “fix” for you, while generally being the greatest cause of the issue itself. Ever heard the quote “be the change you want to see in the world”? It doesn’t mean “ask someone else to be the change you want to see in the world”, it’s up to each of us to change our own lives, and thus the entire world.

Illusion of Choice

Thursday Thoughts: March 17, 2016

With the Spring Equinox just 3 days away, and the Full Moon/Lunar Eclipse another 3 days after that, and the New Moon/Solar Eclipse just over a week behind us, we are certainly in a high-energy window right now.

When it comes to astrology, I don’t really let other people’s interpretations & ideas about the meanings of things affect my life. I do, however, stay up-to-date with the moon cycles, the equinoxes & solstices, and other major alignment points in the energy cycles of the Earth & Universe. It is without question that there is energy hitting the Earth from celestial bodies; we can see light from stars, the moon controls the tides, etc. I just feel into the energy of these times, and try to just be really present with what feelings, attachments, and opportunities present themselves at these times. Of course, the goal is to be totally mindful & present with thought and deed, but I’m a work-in-progress, ever striving to find alignment with my full, unrestrained potential.

I personally look at each major point in the astrological world as an important time for me to set intentions, visualize what the next cycle has for me, and call in the guidance and support I need. Over the next week, with these two events lining up together, I am spending quite a bit of time writing out my intentions for the next 3 months, the rest of the year, and for the years to come. I am going to be creating a new set of flash-cards for myself, and probably a vision board as well. I would highly recommend spending some time in meditation and intention-setting on Sunday & Wednesday (as well as any day before, after, or in-between)

The following is the audio & text of a very powerful invocation I have been calling in for over a year now, and really enjoy sharing with others. I was told about this piece by my friend The Alchemista, after she had an extremely powerful experience when it was played at Beloved Festival, but she didn’t know who it was or what it was called. Within a week I moved into a new house, and 2 of my housemates played this video for me. I immediately sent the link to Ishka, just thinking she would be interested in it, only to find out it was exactly the song she had been telling me about.

I invoke, decree, and dream awake the full cellular Ascension of my BEing
Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual in this Now …

With the full support of God/Goddess, The Ascended Master realm to include: Our Ascended Master Self, father Saint Germain, Sananda, the Holy Mother Mary, Quan Yin/Goddess of Mercy, Archangel Michael and the Legions, Ashtar and the entire command, Babaji, Raphael, Gabriel, Clan of the Trumpet Angels, Aboriginal and tribal shaman, Goddesses of Fortune, Angels of Light, Elohim, Clan of the Serpents, Shiva, All Christ Frequencies, all animal totems, Elementals of Fire and Air, Water and Earth.

All divine beings of Light, Love and Ascension named and unnamed
To activate the cells within my BEing, who are your counterparts with the Unified power of the One. I decree my Highest Good always operating in this Now.
I decree Grace & Mercy always operating in this Now.

I invoke, decree, and dream awake the full truth and reality of this ascension in this now
I invoke and dream awake with every breath that I breathe the VIOLET FIRE transmuting my whole being.
I invoke and dream awake the full current of ascension in every cell of my BEing
I am ascended.

I invoke and dream awake expanded God Consciousness, fully realized in me as Unlimited Abundance fulfilling my every need and desire.

I invoke and dream awake the ending of procrastination, tiredness, blockages and obstacles & unhealthy belief systems.

I decree immediate abundance in my life.
I invoke and dream awake my LIBERATION from all karmic debt
I am Infinite Opulence

I invoke and dream awake my personal empowerment in every instant that anyone is impacted by my being & creations.

I invoke and dream awake the Infinite Empowerment of my sexual, spiritual, mental, emotional, physical and financial relationship with Life.

I invoke and dream awake sacred sexuality, erotic innocence, and always express the sacredness of the sexual force for pleasure, creativity and healing.

I invoke and dream awake World Universal Healing from all sexual woundedness and shame.

I invoke and dream awake worldwide release from all manipulating forces and beings who would control humanity; past, present and future.

I invoke the Angels and Ascended Masters to realign and heal all misused energy to include the full restructuring of our DNA

I invoke and dream awake the transmutation of all negative and judgmental projections

I invoke and dream awake my constant ability to be centered and balanced in my psychic perceptions and empathic nature ~ all overwhelming psychic energies are released by me automatically, easily, effortlessly.

I am Empowered by Everything!

I invoke and dream awake my lucid dreaming each night I sleep and total remembering
When I awake

I invoke and dream awake my infinite harmony with God/Goddess/I AM!

I invoke and dream awake the full expression of my Miraculous Healing Power!

My life is a continuous stream of MIRACLES!

I invoke and dream Awake my infinite ability and willingness to receive ALL of LIFE’S BLESSINGS.

I invoke and dream awake a constant attitude of gratitude for my whole life, all of my accomplishments & blessings, including the same for the Universe at large.
I invoke and dream awake the full blessings of God/Goddess The Ascended Masters, Angels, Guides and BEings of Light to bless this Earth.

I invoke and dream and awake all my decrees, vocations and prayers – I have released to the Universe and opened myself to God’s response, support & love in my highest good.

I invoke and dream awake the release of all past, present and future lifetimes of decrees and vows which would bind me to limitation lack and density and anything not of ascension in this NOW.

I invoke and dream awake the full reclaiming of my eternal self as powerful loving and fully aligned in ABUNDANT God Consciousness.
I invoke and dream awake the total dissolving of all manipulating forces which would bind this earth plane in fear.
I invoke and dream awake the influence of the Ascended Master realm and Angels to intercede and raise the vibrations higher to bring the darkness INTO THE LIGHT.

Raising the frequency of LOVE and GOD CONSCIOUSNESS in this NOW!
I invoke and dream awake the full ascension of planet Earth in this NOW!

Astarius Miraculii

The Spirit Rap



Thursday Thoughts: March 10, 2016

Yesterday, while listening to some Abraham-Hicks recordings and waiting to see what new opportunities the world was going to throw my way, this came on. At first, I didn’t really notice it, but about halfway through the clip, I started to really get sucked in. I quickly decided that I was going to wait until it ended and go back to the beginning so I could write it down. As it turns out, I had my media player on shuffle, so it took about 15 minutes of searching through my library to find it again.

My plan is to read this to myself every night & every morning for the next few weeks, and if it resonates with you, I would recommend doing the same thing. Enjoy!


While I sleep, momentum is going to cease for me.

My point of attraction is resting.

I’m experiencing, while I sleep, a Law of Attraction reprieve.

While I’m sleeping tonight, momentum subsides.

When I awaken in the morning, I’ve pushed the reset button, and now I can jump in at any vibrational point that I choose.

I choose to jump in in a very general place.

I choose to jump in in the place of, “oh this bed feels good”, and “I really did have a nice time”, and “I sure did like this about this”, and “wasn’t that a beautiful thing”, and “doesn’t it feel good to be me”, and “hasn’t life been good to me over these days”, and “isn’t it nice to know that life is supposed to be good”

I like knowing that life is vibrational.

I like knowing that I am a translator of vibration.

I like knowing that Law of Attraction exists.

I like knowing that Law of Attraction creates momentum.

I like knowing that I can choose the direction of my momentum.

I like knowing that when I choose the direction of my momentum, that it becomes obvious to me.

I like knowing that I can’t get it wrong.

I like knowing that this is all for fun.

I like knowing that I am getting to do this, and that the entire Universe is cooperating to show me, in endless ways, what I’ve got going on vibrationally.

I like feeling the worthiness that is me.

I like sensing that Source is on my side.

I like the awareness that I can think out of alignment with Source, but that I always feel it.

I like knowing that I can guide myself back into vibrational alignment with who I really am.

I like knowing that whether I do or not, Source is still adoring me.

I like knowing that Source never takes attention from me, that any time I decide to lean in that direction, it’s right there for me to hook up with.

I like knowing that I get to create my own reality, and I like knowing how that happens.

I like knowing there’s no rush to any finish line.

I like knowing that other people are here like me doing the same thing.

I like knowing that we are all in this together.

I like knowing that we offer benefit to one another.

I like knowing that essentially we are all the same, we are all love looking for a place to happen, we are all clarity looking for a place to happen, that’s who we naturally, innately are.

I like being in this physical body.

I like the knowledge, the intelligence of my self.

I like knowing how much alignment is taking place, even without me knowing it.

I like the awareness of how many things are already queued up for my success, that I don’t even have to think about at all.

I like having figured out what my place in all of this is.

I love the contrast of my life.

I love the exposure to life that generates pure desire within me.

I love wanting new cars and new houses.

I love wanting physical wellness.

I love wanting currency that is so portable and so wonderful to exchange.

I love living life.

I love embracing life.

I love engaging in all the physical things.

I like being physical.

I like the emotional basis, but oh boy, do I like it when my emotional basis is allowed to increase my momentum, unfettered by contradictory thought.

I love the power of creation that flows through me.

I love understanding that I am a focusing mechanism.

I love understanding that Source flows through me.

I like thinking about Source focusing through me.

I like being of benefit to Source.

I like knowing that the Universe is expanding, and that I am a part of that.

I love the feeling of my part in the expansion.

Oh, do I love an idea when it occurs to me.

I love the feeling of an idea.

I love being present and conscious and realizing an idea that is expanding within me because I am not restricting it with contradictory thought.

I love the sensation of energy moving through me.

I love being the vessel through which Source creates.

I love being the cooperative component of that which is Source.

I love adding to the environment in a positive way.

I love tuning my frequency to that of Source.

I love being the catalyst for others to tune their frequency too.

I love being a physical being in this time-space reality, knowing what I know.

I love knowing that I can’t get it wrong, and that I’ll never get it done.

I love knowing that I am an eternal being.

I love knowing that I will always be present, that my consciousness is real, that my consciousness is always focused, and I love knowing all of those who have lived before, whose consciousness is still alive and real and available to me.

I love the infinite intelligence that is available to me.

I love knowing that all I have to do is softly allow a frequency of well-being, just for a little while, and that Law of Attraction will add to it until I have access to infinite intelligence on any subject in the world.

I know that I can expand as far, and as fast, as I decide to, and I know that the underpinning of all of that is to just find something to feel good about, or just remembering the emotion of feeling good.

I love knowing that we are not measured against one another, but that we are all here in support and advantage to each other.

I love remembering the trajectory that we are all on.

I love acknowledging the diversity of that which is us, and recognizing the perfection of that diversity.

I love knowing that I can be in this place where I can feel such clarity of what Source feels, that I can look out on the world and feel good about everything that I see, because I am in alignment with Source, I will not be able to see things that are not in alignment with Source.

I love knowing that this world is expanding, and I love knowing that my part in it is the expansion as well.

I love knowing that what I’m focusing on right now is important enough that a new thought is available, and I love the feeling of the new thought.

I love knowing that I am so unique in my expression of life here that there is never a duplication of anything, I’m not copying anything anybody else is doing. I’m living in this time-space reality uniquely, launching my unique rockets of desire, and I can feel the way Source revels with me in the launching of a new idea.

I can feel the enthusiasm that Source has, in the expansion of the universe that just happened in the conversation I just had, or because of the experience that I just had.

I love knowing the unyielding, ever-offered, undeniable, unconditional love that Source feels for me, and for everyone else.

I love basking in the environment of that well-being.

I love this soup that we all make up.

I love the experience of creation, even more than I love what I am creating.

But I understand that if I did not have an object of attention that I am wanting to create, I could not experience this delicious experience of creation.

I am a creator.

I live for the experience of creation.

I am a co-creator.

I live for the experience of co-creating with my non-physical partners, with my physical partners, for the expansion of all-that-is.

Life is so good for me.

Life is so good for all of us.

We are all in this together.

This is the perfect time to be alive.

There’s nothing better for me to do that what I’m doing right here, right now, finding the fullness of this moment in time.

There’s not someplace else I should be, there’s not someplace else I’d rather be.

There’s not something else I should be doing, there’s not something else I’d rather be doing.

I’m fully invested, fully focused, in this moment, reaching for my center of well-being and then allowing the Universe to show me how far I’m able to go right now with this, and then with this, and then with this, and then with this, a cheering section behind me all the time, all the love and support that could ever be offered, offered to me and to everyone else, no exception.

All I need to do is find a frequency and practice it until it’s my normal frequency.


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